Do You Ever Wonder? · 16 August 2025
Do you ever wonder if you are doing what you are supposed to be doing? Yeah. Me neither.
I suppose that if I ever wondered what I was doing, I would not have over 1000 blog posts since 2007 (actually, late 2006). I would not have over two dozen books on Amazon (the latest two were released on August 1, 2025). And I would not keep having more ideas for blogs and books all the time. Or would I?
I suppose that we all think about what we are doing from time to time. Or if not, maybe we should. We should take stock of our skills and gifts. We should evaluate our goals and dreams. And we should compare them to each other and the time we spend doing them. Then, we could determine whether we were doing what we are supposed to be doing.
Or maybe we should not do any of that. Maybe we should just keep plodding along. Maybe we should operate in fool’s paradise thinking that we are doing okay and not worry about making progress.
Or maybe that is just me.
Now, I must say that I do take stock of my skills and gifts. I do evaluate my goals and dreams. But even though I am just a guy striving to become mediocre. Even though I am a writer trying to get noticed. Even though I am churning out blog posts and books that nobody reads I still write. And I still love it.
I know that sounds strange. It even sounds strange to me. Think about it. Who in their right mind would write and write and write when nobody reads? Okay. I know that I would. I wonder who else would. I would write if I was the only one who read my stuff. I would. And I know I would because nobody reads my stuff but me. Okay. Not quite true. I have a couple friends who read my blog. I have a couple friends who have read my books.
But it does not matter how many people read my stuff. I will continue to write. And no. That is not a threat.
The reason that I will continue to write is not because I think that one day I will strike it rich. That I will be like one of those overnight successes who worked and worked and worked in obscurity for years and years until he or she hit it big. (I bet you thought I was going to put one more “and years” in there.) No. It is much simpler than that.
The reason that I will continue to write even if I am the only one who reads my writing is because I write for an audience of one. Okay, two. I write for me. (Two.) And more importantly, I write for the Lord. (One.)
I know it might sound strange, but I want to do everything I do for an audience of One. I want to please the Lord and only the Lord. Nobody else matters. Even me. Which is why I write. I write because I believe it is what the Lord would have me do. And since that is true, I will write with whatever earthly audience I have. Even if that audience is just me.
So yes. I do take stock of my skills and talents. I do look at who reads my stuff and who buys my stuff (I cannot really see who buys unless you leave a review). And even though it seems that I should give up and quit throwing garbage onto the internet, I will persist. I will keep writing. For it is what I am supposed to be doing.
I do still wonder if I am doing what I am supposed to do. I wonder because I do not get any accolades from the world. But that is okay. Because even if it is just in my imagination, I can see the Lord smiling at my obedience. And that is worth everything to me. Even when I wonder if I am doing what I am supposed to be doing.
© 2025 Michael T. Miyoshi
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